October 15, 2015.

Got up morning smiling and head scratching with Tilakan and notes of TM Krishna in the head. Achan, Father.Two actors, Thilakan and Sasi Eranjikkal, a sky piercing apartment, no women, no music, ..and the story of Thilakan as a stroke-hit customer. Speech gone, Thilakan is silent; Sasi (Rahitan) does the talking. Ali Akbar directed film got into trouble with Thilakan expelled from the Association of Malayalam Movie Artists (Amma); Thilakan is (never was) a likeable cactus. Rama had not heard of the film when one tuned randomly into Kiran TV to see a stuttering Thilakan. Stuck to our sofas, became parts of the frames. Me tried a shot of Thilakan in front of a mirror before Rama pleaded for a stop. Thilakan does that to me like two other maestros: Om Puri and Naseeruddin Shah. Thilakan, me suspects is raw, possibly no schools and teachers for him; no guru-shishya bureaucracy of power. In the evening , Rama went out with friend Malathi and me with TM Krishna expanding on Theliyaleru Rama, a Saint Thyagaraja composition, Dheunka raga, says internet; like this human; he picks up the listener for a long fly on notes, sometimes goes silent, sometimes effusive...maybe thats what Thyagaraja bhakti does; he is probably thinking loud on the stage, asking questions.. dialoguing with self, asking --the lone human right and freedom. Have heard Theliyaleru twice and on to other concerts on youtube. Not that me knows anything about sruthis, talas, ragas, thanams, bhrigas..no, surely not....TM Krishna has helped me into all of them without knowing them. He fascinates...like the one-hour Documentary on Albert Einstein.... formulas, a plus b, alphas, betas, deltas pop up chalk white on blackboards...more as stars in a night sky .... smoke rising from Einstein's pipe, they hold me not because me knows them ...me likes to stare at them ...and then dropped into TM Krishna with Entharo mahanu bhavulu...Somewhere, TM Krishna elaborates on happines, asks: Am I really making people happy...Is he happy ..Me answer: Yes Sir. Like Thilakan, Om Puri and Naseeruddin Shah. Amen.