Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Let me walk in beauty


Mathrubhoomi is quaint. A full page for the dead, tombing the dead quite regularly; a full page obit; deaths are arranged district-wise; today entire page 9, Charamam; Rama and me scan it regularly for deaths in Allapuzha and Kollam where village Kottarakara is. Do not think any other newspaper marks a page for death; am not sure; English newspapers have no space for the common dead. No near and dear ones in Kottarakara and Allapuzha. Was born there in a tiled house opposite Lord Ganesh temple; seemingly it started as a Shiva temple and then passed on power to son; all in the family more as the Gandhi family and Congress. Today, Mathrubhoomi has a death of 89 year old Sumathi Kuttti Amma, with pix, in Kottarakara: me family has no deaths in Kottarakara; me elders died in Kolkata and Mumbai. Years away from Kottarakara; never, never was a village citizen; yet, a mention of the village and there is a blood rush; a desire to be there for a day; Rama wants to go to Allapuzha for a few days; for son Ganesh, Mumbai and Yogi Nagar is all; do not know whether Vidya in Chennai misses Mumbai; for Dakhi it is Amchi Mumbai. Have not been able to explain this desire for logging the dead. In Calcutta times, The Statesman had a Personal column on the edit page writing down deaths; read it regularly. Do not know if Mathrubhoomi charges; Rama thinks it is for free. Death is life missing and me loves Life; for me it is not Maya of the Vedantist or the Buddhist; no holy books, gurus, meditations; have desires; lots of it; am not shamed of them; at 70 it does not cost any to desire writing a Sahitya Academy poem or directing an art film with Kottarakara as locale for a Filmfare critics award; or best of all to be an ordinary journalist chatting up ordinary women, men and children on the streets; in next janma, if there is one, me would like to be a journalist in a Childrens newspaper with a child as Editor. Yes, that would be enormous fun. Fun is distinctly absent in Who Moved My Interest Rates by Duvvuri Subbarao; wonder whether RBI governors and bankers laugh; or corporates. The book is deadly serious and bankers could like it. Long ago friend Narayana Karunakara Kurup bought me a less than palm-size book: The Beautiful Years: The Joys of Being Older; A Helen Exley Giftbook; long afternoons me quips its tiny pages; a Native American saying goes: Let me walk in beauty, and make my eyes ever behold the red and purple sunset. Mumbai has sunrises and sunsets. Enough. 

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