Friday, June 30, 2017

A Song 152



Not in My Name
does not wash the shame
of In My Name....
emailed Tuka and Kabira,
scratching forever Rama.
Facebooked:
We pull out our names,
dissolve our fame,
delete doha, abhang
datelines,
timelines.
Comments came:
Shame remains,
remains of a blame game.
How does one cure a lynching?
Tuka, Kabira replied:
None.
We sign in our guilt,
there being no way out.
Quitting our convictions.
Into exile,
which again is of no help.
How does one cure a killing?
   

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

A press note



A rain smudged press note landed on the table.
Nowhere Heavens.
June 28, 2017.

It read:

Over the last few months,
we Creators are in tears.
Today, we are in tatters.
Sun, moon, stars, skies, seas, rains, earth
put in their resignations on Sunday.
They are upset with humans;
do not want to abet killings, lynchings.
Resignations have been accepted.
We are pulling out of creation.
A unanimous decision.
We Gods are not.
We Gods are out.

Signed,

Sincerely,

Gods.

A request to Editors: Please publish the same as a paid obit. 

Monday, June 26, 2017

Me is damned


Prasad regularly maintains the air conditioner at home. Every three months he calls, me says yes and he is at home like he did the other day. A huge red tilak covers his forehead. After a glass of water, he said: India-Pakistan match fixed tha, saab. O Kohli theek nahin hai.' He did not have any evidence; India is busy erasing evidence. Working on the machine, he asked whether me housing society has any Muslims. Me said no. They are out. He added: Theek nahin hai. Asked him: Humlog theek hain? He smiled, got busy with his work. Yes the BJP government has seeded minority hatred for a sure victory in 2019. Hatred grows faster than grass. Like it or not we do not want Muslims and Dalits and poor. Better they go. The famed 2002 Gujarat model is being applied to India. What should me do? Do not have the courage to stand up. Every morning The Indian Express, wire.in, scroll.in, Ravish Kumar write of an open hatred, flaunting of a strong dislike, waving flags: 1947, 1984, 1992, 2002 and now 2017. Today Pratap Bhanu Mehta in The Indian Express writes: 'May the silent be damned; Evil is wearing down protest. The new wave of lynchings represents a new benchmark in Indian politics. Junaid Khan, Mohammad Akhlaq, Pehlu Khan, Zahid Rasool Bhat, Abu Hanifa, Riazuddin Ali, Zafar Hussain, Ayub Pandit, the list can go on, will tragically go on, in a republic whose only near certain headline these days is a lynching.....Narendra Modi may loudly proclaim that he is defending our borders. But his cowardly silences, or abstract gestures, are emboldening the barbarians within.' The newspaper in a first edit, Junaid's Murder says: '......The party that dominates the Centre and rules a growing number of states in India must ask itself if, despite its several electoral successes, it can call itself a victor if the very polity it presides over is hollowed of its richness, if it can no longer boast of being a safe house for minorities.' India is safe for bhakts alone. Begum Jaan of Vidya Balan is a movie for out hate times. She and a few women live in a koti and the Radcliffe Commission line dividing India and Pakistan runs through the koti. Vidya Balan is upset, taps bells and drums, to save her women in a koti without caste, creed, religion .... it has women abused by men... Vidya Balan says women have no freedoms. Is the 1947 Partition being played out again? Today me do not know Pratap Bhanu Mehta. Or rather me is Hell damned.   

Hindi Medium



On amazon, Rama and me saw Hindi Medium, laughed, enjoyed. Rating B plus. A Hindi film with unpleasant large parts like the rotis and sabjis me makes for Rama, reluctant to cook. Will tell friends to watch the film directed by Saket Chaudhry with Irrfan Khan in the lead along with Deepak Dobriyal. Irrfan, Nawaz, Bajpai... a fine generation dotting the Indian film industry. Irrfan's wife, Meeta Batra is obsessed with English education for her daughter in a top class Delhi school. Wants it somehow.The film spoofs the Right to Education law reserving seats for poor in high class, English speaking schools. Meeta becomes Honey from Mitho to align with high society and Irrfan nods famously. Helpless. Deprives the son of slum dweller, Deepak Dobriyal of the RTE quota. The film winds down mushy but yet mirrors an Indian craze for English education and assured, high paid jobs. And the film is not fantasy. As a kid in Calcutta, father wanted me soaked in English. He loved the language and all my cousins were at English medium, Hindi High School. Me also went with the monthly fees at Rs.52 and bus fees separate in the 50s. Father could not afford it; it pained more when me flunked and flunked with the first language Hindi, second language English, third language Sanskrit plus the rest of the nuisance. Yes, me was a disappointment as me scored pass marks. Passed out weak in all languages. Today, except for a bit of English, is unversed in Indian languages. Credit be to father that English helped me earn a living as a journalist. And it is happening to my grand-daughters. Shreya is uncomfortable with English, Chiyu is indifferent. They speak Marathi like in Calcutta we spoke  Brahminised Tamil as mother did not know English. Hindi Medium is an ode to Hindi and could be extended to all Indian languages, equally graceful. Englishmen imposed English, north India stuffs Hindi, where will other languages be. Today, there is an armed stress on Hindi when the south and the east and the north east are unfamiliar with Hindi. But they are more comfortable with Hindi than the north with their languages; it is English and others; follows, Hindi and others. Not many children in UP and Bihar are taught Tamil or Kannada or Bengali... but Hindi is a must in the south under the 3-language formula. Shreya and Chiyu call Rama Aji and me Ajoba. Is it not as sweet as Dada and Dadi in Gorakhpur homes? 

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

A Song 149


Mornings,
noons,
evenings,
nights,
thick specs and tapping sticks,
in dhotis and sarees,
shuffle to wooden benches,
cement rests,
under banyans, peepals,
on Link Road.
Monsoon winds hush
Ram Krishna Haris,
Tuka and Kabira,
chuckles;
wind down eyes.
Me am one,
with the world done. 

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Owen Ruskin Bond


Owen Ruskin Bond is a Mussorie haiku. Lone Fox Dancing, My Autobiography is a prose haiku bearing the flavour of the famed Basho haiku: At the ancient pond, a frog plunges into, the sound of water. Bond has helped me up, when down and out, many times. Followers of Bond, may not find much novelty. Quite a bit of what he says is there in old renderings. Yet, me did not know he was not near to his maternal grandmother; that he did like his mother, though father is always with the writer. 'For better or worse, we are all shaped by our parents. My mother's sensuality, I think, was stronger than her intelligence; in me, sensuality and intelligence have always been at war with each other. ....I like to believe I had mended my relationship with my mother before she died...' Bond perhaps liked his maternal grandfather as much as his father, though the writer may deny it. ' .... from the stories I heard about him, he appeared to be a gently, eccentric man -- he would disguise himself as a vegetable vendor or a juggler and wander around in the bazaars. He was also in the habit of bringing home unusual pets -- owls, frogs, chameleons and, on one occasion, a hyena, which chewed up the boots in the house and had to be released back into the forest very quickly.'  Every writer to be a writer has to have a quirk in the family, inherit the quirkness. Guess Bond got it all from his grandfather. Through the heat of May in Borivili, me went page after page, haltingly sometimes swiftly. These days cant do a book at one read; go back and forth; a break for sometimes a week, before back to Bond. Gandhi moment. January 1948. His afflicted sister Ellen spent hours 'drawing pictures of Gandhi......but we could recognize Gandhi's round rimmed glasses, sandals and walking stick..' Will Bond be read 50 years hence? Will Shreya and Chiyu hug Bond when they turn Ladies. Will Vidya, Ganesh and Dakhi read Bond in their old age? Last para of the book: ' This is the evening of a long and fairly fulfilling life. And it is late evening in Landour. A misty, apricot light suffuses the horizon. Down in the villages the apricots are ripening. A small boy brought me the fresh fruit this morning -- still very sour, very tangy, but full of promise. And if apricots could take precedence over missiles, the world would be full of promise too. I'm afraid science and politics have let us down. But the cricket still sings on the window-sill.'  He is not an intellectual, thanks be. Even if he is lost 50 years hence, no bother, as Bond has given me some of the finest hours. Lone Fox Dancing in me heart.  

A Song 148




Dawn,
in an arm chair,
with haiku.

A Song 147


70.
Done little.
Said a lot.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

An Indo-Pak cricket game


Stuck between a question and a statement from my friend: So today India? A pleasant wind was unfurling peepal leaves as me took it sitting under the tree. For years have seen Gavaskar, Sachin Sehwag put down Pakistan greats Imran, Wasim, Waqar; Javed Minadad and Inzamam returning the favour.  Me has enjoyed the bat and ball Tests in Pakistan and India. Always had a problem taking sides; when West Indies under Frank Worrell and Garfield Sobers served divine cricket me was a West Indian fan; when India beat West Indies in 1983 World Cup, felt sad for Viv Richards. Richards, Holding, Lara .... for me they are tops. It is another matter in those times me could wave a foreign flag in fervour. Today, me has to become the Tricolour and me finds it hard, really hard. Have TV viewers in India to stand up to the National Anthem when the India-Pakistan match starts. Maybe not. Maybe yes. Somehow patriotism never flutters me. Still recall the day when the Chepauk crowd stood up to applaud Wasim Akram and the Pakistan team when they koed India after a fine Sachin century; Gavaskar said: Sachin should have finished the match. But Sachin had a painful injury. That's being a liberal and am proud of the Chepauk moment, watching on TV. Perhaps, they were all liberals and a repeat cannot be dreamt of in 2017. Liberals (me am a liberal) are spat at and that's okay as they can rarely take a stand; there are too many truths and lies to an issue; have been trying to define myself and today Saadat Hasan Manto gave me the definition. Have read him and the short tale Toba Tek Singh many times. Writes Manto (Saadat Hasan Manto: Selected Stories): 'There he stood in no-man's-land on his swollen legs like a colossus. Since he was a harmless old man, no further attempt was made to push him into India. He was allowed to stand where he wanted, while the exchange continued. The night wore on. Just before sunrise, Bishen Singh, the man who had stood on his legs for fifteen years, screamed and as officials from the two sides rushed towards him, he collapsed to the ground. There behind barbed wire, on one side, lay India and behind more barbed wire, on the other side, lay Pakistan. In between, on a bit of earth, which had no name, lay Toba Tek Singh.' For me Toba Tek Singh is the Liberal. Today, with Toba Tek Singh and Saadat Hasan Manto Manto, the other Liberal, will watch cricket on TV. 

Thursday, June 15, 2017

A Song 145



Earth rested on the banyan
at Karuna.
Sun, asleep on banyan top.
Old Man,
rested spine on banyan,
feet straight out.
Lady, eyes shut,
head on legs of Old Man,
below the banyan.
Sparrows hopped,
banyan breezed.
Absent,
creative bings, bangs.
Quiet. 

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

A Song 144



At the window sill,
every morning,
sparrows sign the muster,
ahead of biscuit breakfast.
We dont talk.
We want to talk.
'Maya,'
say Tuka and Kabira.
No last straw.  

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

C.O. Mathai


Chikkalveedu Oommen Mathai from Kottarakara. His father Oommen, was a vakil goomastha to grandfather, Kannadi Vakil Swami, practicing in Kottarakara. For long Oommen pestered Vakil Swami to put in a word to his son-in-law, me father, to get son a job in Calcutta. Calcutta, Bombay and New Delhi were the US, Gulf and New Zealand of today. Assuring rainbows in pockets. A 20sh Chikkalveedu Oommen Mathai (C.O. Mathai) dropped anchor in Lake Temple Road, near our home. Got a job which did not promise rainbows in pockets; graduated, mastered; would read business books near the Lakes when there was no Rabindra Sarobar stadium while me roamed around, doing nothing and happy. After all the degrees got a job in LIC; a few strands of rainbows in pockets. In the evenings worked as a clerk in Rasika Ranjana Sabha with Raja anna. They were close. Every year would go to Kottarakara for at least 15 days; returning, carry fresh, home made bags of banana, jackfruit and yam chips; tapioca papads and ordinary papads; he would come home, place the fresh stocks, and stand in a corner. He never took a seat when father and mother were home; and as they were always at home, he stood and talked to mother of Kalyani, Karthiyani, father Oommen, mother. Every year till he got transferred, landed up as an officer in the LIC offices at Trivandrum, a 52 km bus ride from Kottarakara. He was happy being near his dear village Kottarakara, naadu. He had made it to Kottarakara. He was kind and lovable. He died. Lies buried in some churchyard. He never missed the Church on Sundays. Others were not as lucky. Me grandmother and Kannadi Vakil Swami yearned for Kottarakara. Ashramam village was all for father. Every book of his had Ashramam village under his signature. Mother wanted to be in Calcutta. Their imaginations had many homes; when in trouble they retreated to their homes to live for a few moments. Like me does today. Aspro tablets on a down and out day. Have visited Kottarakara, me birth place, twice in my life when young. But the single track railway line and the railway station with sacks of farm produce, the temple pond, the Munnu Randal Mukku (Three Lamp corner) near the pond, the picking up of a copy of The Hindu by the lone afternoon bus, vadas and idlis free at Alamelu hotel, the chandai and grandmother handing over an anna to buy what pleased. No electricity, no tapped water; the tiled home facing the Shiva temple, had seven rooms; the kitchen at the back opened to farmlands and a well. There were no cars, two or three bullock carts; sometimes an elephant would stride by, clean up many appams packed in banana leaves, a dip in the temple pond... Kottarakara comes to me again and again.  Not Calcutta, not Bombay. Can provide more details but that may be boring. And the night when sleep is absent, Kottarakara comes in welcome relief. When Rama and me with Kurup and Sugatha went to Kottarakara in 2013, our home was walled from the temple. Kottarakara had turned a medium size Mall. Sufficient reason for me to stick to a rainbow born in Kottarakara. 

Monday, June 12, 2017

.... Fallen Chinar


Can a fallen chinar give shade? Kashmiris are trying. On youtube, saw twice the short film of Shawn Sebastian - In the shade of the Fallen Chinar. Liked it. Young faces, handsome men and lovely women, giving up guns, taking up poetry, paint brushes, Sufi music, producing a magazine at the Kashmir University to decontain their pain and there is no denying Kashmiris are in pain, a deep hurt which will not go, perhaps forever. Can Sikhs ever detox 1984? There are 500 to 600 chinars in the campus for the young to talk to. Some shade. Chinars have been there always; doubtful if they will be around. Why is New Delhi denying the film's existence? What exactly is unbhakt about it? Towards the end, a young man attends prayers at the tomb of his friend, downed by the Army. Yes, The Indian Express is to the point when it ends a third edit -  Keep it irrelevant - 'After decades of official repression, we now like our films socially irrelevant; truth-seekers like Sebastian should give us a break.' Yes, New Delhi has broken Sebastian. Thanks be. Try as Prime Minister Modi may, Kashmir cannot be solved without Insaniyat. Me has only one ordinary solution. Table Talk with all; together, separately; and with all; starting with young men and women, their parents; and all politicians; keep talking; talking can be tiring; talking allows all to live. There is simply no way out. Bullets and army boots will surely fail, if they have not failed. As a start keep the Kashmir University and schools open, always. Siddartha Sankar Ray and Jyothi Basu in the 70s killed and tortured Naxals and today The Indian Express has a front page lead story: Spreading their footprint, Maoists map new zone of operations in three states. India will have to find ways to live with protests; the poor are hungry; their lands and cattle are being taken away; they will protest as they get to read the alphabets of dissent; the poor make the majority in me country; even the cruel Chinese government of Communists have not been able to entirely do away with protests; Tibetans are not giving up; the Modi government is inching towards the Chinese model and it is not going to help. Dissent has to be assented to. Modi government has hit out at two more films: March, March, March and The Unbearable Being of Lightness as Modi is uncomfortable with the Left and Dalits.  Some time ago PM Modi tried to usurp Mahatma Gandhi in a khadi calendar. Amit Shah has dubbed Gandhi a 'chatur baniya'. Is it a  prelude to banning The Story of My Experiments with Truth written by that chatur baniya, M.K. Gandhi in Gujarati?  Or editing Experiments? Will the many Ramayanas and Mahabharatas be also made In Briefs ....?  Today, 2017, anything can happen to diminish freedoms. Thats the lone certainty. I am sorry, very sorry, Kashmiris, Vemula, young of JNU. 

Sunday, June 11, 2017

A Song 143



Vicksy
old women,
older men,
bald heads,
walked to a free camp
for hair transplants;
doctors transplanted heads,
leaving oldies same -
confused,
friendless. 

Friday, June 9, 2017

A Song 142


Said the 80 plus lady,
crossing herself,
at the door of the Church:
Since 5,
have been to Church.
Faith is a nervous tic.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

A Song 140



At Scissors,
Khan machine-shaved
head of
truths,
half-truths,
quarter-truths,
wiped truth drops.
Tempted with
a combo offer:  
a heart-shave and wash,
at a 50 per cent discount.
A sutured,
stented,
sewed,
70 year old heart,
refused the risk.
Tipped Khan Rs. 30. 

A Song 139


June 8.
Sparrows unwet.
A reluctance?
No invites?
From over the hills
beyond the mangroves,
rain clouds in a shuffle,
halt, wait at bus stops
to me city;
tiring drives over years
from stubble of rocks
far north,  
has aged them;
no drums, no lanterns;
as Lady and Old Man holding boneless
hands,
describe Buddhist circles
on kneeless legs strapped to walking sticks,
nursing a cold raindrop
on Karuna Road,
in karuna. 

Sunday, June 4, 2017

A Song 138


A Buddha-head on
me work table
weeping Compassion.


....

At Gateway of India,
a getaway from India,
no more is India.



Saturday, June 3, 2017

A Song 137


Lady nursing a raindrop
on Old Man's bald head.
'Will there be raindrops in
Birmingham for India-Pakistan
cricket match?' asked Old Man.
'Where is Birmingham,' asked
Lady.
'Dont know,' replied Old Man.
Like many things Old Man does not know,
is afraid of.
Night under the banyan,
Old Man dreamt
of his mother leading him to
school with a wood-bordered slate;
his returning home
with the wood frame and no slate.
'What does that mean?' he asked Lady.
Lady hushed a crow sipping
a raindrop on Old Man's bald head.
'Am not a vatic,' added Lady.
'Think me am going to die,
afraid to die,' remarked Old Man.
'You wont be there
upstairs or groundstairs;
to care,' added Old Man,
a shiver.
'But you have to be there,
somewhere,
thats for sure,'
reminded Lady.
'Will you miss me,' asked Old Man.
'Ah, life is a catch dropped;
a ball missed;
a regret,
to be spat out,' said Lady.
'So am I a cricket ball?' asked Old Man.
'Yes, a new, an old,
a lost, a sold ball,'
said Lady.
'Cricket balls have no gods,
they have Lady Luck;
like you have me forever,'
said Lady,
prompting Old Man into a
Sunday joy.   

Thursday, June 1, 2017

A Song 136



Aged songsters
of tree and life,
Tuka and Kabira,
tapped the shoulder of
a wood cutter
working down an old peepal;
'Is it fair?', they asked.
'You have a cutting machine,
peepal has none.'
Wiping sweat,
wood cutter replied:
'If  I dont, family will have no dal.'
Added: 'Ajoba, my wife waters and prays
a tulsi every morning;
lights a diya to a peepal in my basti,
pray before starting
for work.'
May was tearing the
old poets;
'words hurt less than saws,'
thought they.
Wood cutter untied a cloth bundle
of bakhris and cut onions,
to lunch;
could not afford a Bisleri.
'Peepals have no re-births,
are always,'
said Kabira to the wood cutter.
'Only humans are born many times over;
Vithala said, ' clarified Tuka.
'To chop peepals?' asked wood cutter.
Late evening,
the peepal was not;
with the day's wages,
wood cutter picked up
dal and rice,
caught a local
home.